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I started meditating, 6 months post my breakup.I started it, because I really didn’t move on with the memories. My mind was cluttered with so many thoughts.If you could asked me, for a plain glass of water- I would relate to it the time of past ,“like how cute he looked when the sweat shined on his face, those water droplets” .I mean who remembers that- well I did, and most of people like me.first time, when I tried meditating. It was too hard to sit ever for a MINUTE. More thoughts of him, bursted in my mind. It left a miserable feeling of hurt, anger hatred and anxiety.I screamed and cried that entire night, repeating this in my mind “ I’m not good for anything” .For next few days,I kind of avoided trying this.Deep down, I knew this is the best medicine to heal. But was quite reluctant to try it again..During those days, nights were the most impossible time to handle my feeling. Days were somehow, I passed. But nights were filled with pain and sorrow. It was like a death of closest person in your family.I used to go to terrace after 10 PM everynight. My peace was looking at sky and crying out aloud to god- as if the god was listening, and tried that “ make it more alive, make my life again alive”.1–2 weeks later, I tried meditating again. With more energy and patience this time.It lasted for 5–6mins, I couldn’t define that - how soothing it was for me, that time.So, I started practicing it everyday- to get that placid feeling. Somedays, I achieved feeling great from inside, some days I won’t.But, the best thing for that time was that, it started.I meditated 10 mins then increased that time to 20 mins and then to 30 mins.My little efforts were showing results. I was becoming calmer, compassion and started feeling more empathatic towards other people.Within 3 months of practicing meditation. I was relieved with many thoughts which were haunted me, once.It’s not like, I was blank or something. I watched my thoughts with more clarity.As, if finding a purpose.Now, I meditate even more, because it teaches me something interesting everyday. That I didn’t cared about yesterday.I MEDITATE TO FEEL IT MORE, CONNECT IT MORE AND LIVE IT MORE...My quora fam: Saumya PathakEdit: here is my way of meditating to lift the soul power Saumya Pathak's answer to What is the best way to meditate?

“I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer..and I won the battle with it.”Fast rewind 2 months from now, it was the time of diwali when suddenly one night, I suffered from severe stomach pain in the right side of my lower abdomen. The pain was impossible for me to take. I was shivering badly which came with the pain I still guess so, because I wasn’t having cold or fever anyway. But the next day the pain was gone. The whole day there wasn’t any feeling of pain or anything really, so I ignored thinking it to be due to indigestion or anything minor. But it returned again. And this time it was around 3am to 6:30am approximately. And it repeated for next 2..3 days continuously. Finally an aunt of mine advised me to go for a checkup as these kind of pain should not be taken lightly. She was a nurse and she doubted it to be appendicitis as all my symptoms matched with it. I had stomach pain that too in the right side. It was the symptom of appendicitis.The next day my father took an appointment to see the doctor, though I was not in a mood to go through a checkup because the pain did not come back from that night after my aunt advised me so. Though my mother insisted and we went to the doctor. The doctor checked my abdomen and advised me an ultra sound test. And the reports came to be a tumour like mass covered my right ovary which was of size 5–6cm. I was shocked. I had no symptoms of it and it reached to such size that there is no way left else than surgery for it to be taken out of me.My whole family was shaken at the report and father decided not to do any treatment here in Assam and we went Bangalore where my brother was staying. My brother searched for the best hospital for such a treatment and also the best doctor for the case. We listed out two amongst all - Manipal and Narayana. And we selected Narayana for the treatment. (I’m mentioning every detail of my hospital and doctor so that if there is any reader or your belonging suffering same, you can trust the hospital blindly and also the doctor who treated me..because I’m experienced and trust me its the best.) We met this doctor Dr. Rohit Raghunath Ranade, an oncologist, gynecologist at Narayana Mazumder Shaw medical centre, a unit of Narayana. I will tell you later why this hospital is the best and also the doctor.So we met him and discussed what has happened till now. I showed him the ultra sound reports and he asked me few questions like… do my periods come regularly? Do I feel irritation while urinating? Do I get the feeling of hunger normally? Do I get tired at every little walk or work I do? And when was the last time I got my period…. My every activity and body function was normal, I had none of the above problems he asked. He asked me to do some blood tests and an MRI ( Magnetic Resonance Imaging) and meet him the next day with the reports. He doubted it to be a cyst as there was no symptoms for it to be a major anything. We became so happy at the news though he was not sure about it still it was a relief for us to hear that as cyst is not a harmfull thing and it can be taken out through micro surgery.We did accordingly, went through several blood tests and an MRI. My blood reports came normal, there was nothing in my blood and the MRI was a bit difficult for us to understand. Still the blood reports were a sign for us that nothing major happened to me. My parents took a breath of relief at the reports and was confident enough to step in the chamber to see the doc. We were expecting to hear it from the doc that “there is nothing to be worried of she will be fine either of medicines or with a small micro surgery thats it”…We met the doc with reports and he went through it thoroughly. And coming to the result he started his lines wid it… Ok! Look Arpita,you need to be strong first… your blood reports came normal..but the MRI shows something else…the mass is not a cyst as cyst only contains liquid in it. The mass is surrounding your right ovary and contains some solid particles in it and we doubt it to be“CANCER”.……………………………………………………….……………………………………………………….Yeah…thats how my body reacted at what he just said….was it a nightmare I was having?? I wana wake up NOWWW if it was so. Or did someone raised the temp.of AC..??? Why was I feeling so cold suddenly..?? Cancer…??? me??? How??? When??? Many questions came to my mind and I was unable to hear anything after that very line he said…but I had to wake up looking at the faces of my parents. My mother almost fainted and my father , after doc was explaining the procedure of treatment, he couldn’t control his tears any longer and he went out of the chamber. We followed him. Trust me…I never ever saw my father crying so hard in my entire life. He was crying just like a baby whose most precious toy is snatched by someone and he is crying loud for it to return back to him just the way it was. The way he was looking at me and crying so hard..that gave me strength to return back to him being his fit and healthy daughter again. All I knew is.. “ I HAVE to be fine and I have to survive this” . I did not shed a single tear after the news and was strong enough to go to the doctor and ask about the procedure further. He explained that I need an open surgery as micro surgery will be risky for the purpose. They want to bring the mass out leaving the particles intact and micro surgery will burst everything inside and the cancer germs might spread rapidly after it gets burst. So this was their plan… “they will cut open my lower abdomen..take out the right ovary along with its fallopin tube and immediately they will send it for frozen test which will give results within half n hour. Frozen test is a test where it shows 90% correct result whether the thing is cancerous or not. And if my frozen reports came positive i.e cancerous,, they will cut out my omentum which is a passage like organ connecting ovary and stomach because in case of ovarian cancer the germ first spreads in the stomach through omentum. So they will cut out it and also some nodes with it and send everything for biopsy test. And it will be followed by a chemo that I will recieve after the surgery.” That’s his plan.I got admitted on 28th Nov and on 29th Nov they did my surgery. It was a very painful experience of my life as I was the girl who was afraid of even a little injection. And the summary of my treatment is… the frozen reports came positive. They cut out my omentum and all…checked my whole abdomen. And at the end after the surgery every doctor said I am extremely lucky as the stage where I was diagnosed, only 12% to 13% people get to know at this stage. Most of the patients come at the very last stage when the doctors had nothing in their hands to do for them except trying to extend their lives a bit. They kept me in ICU for two days and then shifted me to the ward and after 4 days of surgery I got discharged.After 14 days we met the doctor with my biopsy reports and also they cut my stitches out. The doc summarised the whole treatment and also the reports to me in a nutshell. He said it was ovarian cancer stage 1(a) and nothing was spread. The cancer cells(malignant cells) were just about to spread and they cut everything out and now I am out of risk and can deal a normal life. Also I didnot need a chemo as it was stage 1(a). Cancer consists of three sub-stages…stage (a),(b),(c). And stage 1(a) doesnot require chemo. I can get married, have kids as my left ovary is totally fine my fallopin tube is fine..and also my uterus is normal functioning and I can conceive normally.And with this the nightmare was over from my life. My parents finally took a breath of relief after 1 long month of depression. My brother played a really big role in this whole phase. He became my most strongest mental strength and support. I guess without him I would have given up long back. My parents couldn’t give me mental support as they themselves needed it the most that time. But my brother never …even for a single time broke down in front of me though I knew it was an utter shock for him to see his little sister suffering from such disease. He constantly motivated me..explained every small details of the process and assured me a 100% cure of my condition. He is and will be the biggest blessing from God to me.Now let me tell you why my doc and my hospital is the best. The frozen test which was done is a special facility which Narayana has in it amongst very few hospitals in India. And also let me tell you its importance. After a surgery is done to a cancer affected area, once the cancer cells get contact with surgical tools or get contact with the air…it spreads rapidly within fraction of seconds. And biopsy test takes one week to show its result. That means within that one week your stage of cancer will increase. And if the reports came positive, again you have to go through a surgery to cut out the remaining affected area out. Take my case as an example, if the frozen test would not have done to me, and they would have waited for biopsy reports to come, my omentum would have not been removed as the reports did not come..and once the reports came they would have taken me for another surgery to take the remaining parts out. That means double pain and also in an increase of life risk. And why my doctor is best? Dr. Rohit in general is an amazing human being, super friendly and super positive in his attitude. You will not feel any risk or fear after talking to him about your problem even if it is cancer. That’s a very important thing a doctor should have in his behaviour and attitude. And he has been the 3rd best oncologist and gynecologist in Tata memorial cancer hospital, Mumbai. He is amongst the top 10 best oncologist, gynecologist doctors in India, you can search it in google. He has worked in best hospitals and also practiced abroad. Thus, he is the best. You will find a good friend in one of the best doctors of India.So this was the hardest time I went through and also i got over it. I would also talk a bit about ovarian cancer. First of all life is really unpredictable. You never know when you are taking your last breath or living your last day. Death is not in our hands but our health is. Specially for woman I am sharing my experience. Problems relating to ovary, uterus has been seen in almost 80% of woman now a days. No doctors could answer the question for why is this happening? And no..!! Sanitary pads has got no role in this problem. They cannot be the cause for ovarian cancer. My doc said. This is a silent killer and has got really no symptoms. So all you can do to protect yourself is to go through a body checkup once a year. Though there is no proper symotoms still there are few of it… I’m mentioning them below…You will have abnormal periods like heavy bleeding or very less bleeding or your periods will extend for 8..9 days.You will get no periods.You will have vaginal discharge. Some white substance will flow from your vagina abnormally.You will loose your appetite and weight.Your body colour will turn fading as there will be a great fall in your RBC(red blood cell) count. You can check your tongue and palm whether it is fading or is reddish.You will get back pain if the problem is related to your ovary and uterus.You will feel irritation while urinating and it will be followed by constipation too.For married woman I read in the symptoms chart, you will feel pain while intercourse if it is ovarian cancer.Sometimes it is genetic. So if you have a family history of such disease you must be in checkups once a year. I got it genetically as my cousin is also having 4th stage ovarian cancer.One more symptom is there which I and also some of the victims of such disease have seen personally. You will start looking very tired if you have that in your body even though you are super active and full of energy. Let me show you the difference.Picture 1.Picture 2Picture courtsey- my galleryPicture 1 is 15 days before I was diagnosed. And picture 2 is right after I was shifted to wards from ICU. Can you mark the difference in my face? Yes I’m talking about that difference. You will look pale and tired. Although you are not. But in the 2nd pic even after going through a major surgery I looked energetic. I hope I could explain it well.So these are the few symptoms that I know. If you are having any of it please …please get yourself examined once. Take good care of yourself girls. Donot neglect any discomfort you feel in your body. Get a body checkup once a year. And if possible, spread awareness to your belongings too. Life is very precious but you cannot deny the biggest truth of life too…i.e Death. So before death comes, live each and every moment of life to the fullest. Spread love, spread smile share happiness and stay healthy.Thank you.Edit1 :- I’m overwhelmed at the responses you all have shown. Thank you so much for all the wishes,prayers and blessings. These means a lot to me.Edit2 :- Someone in the comment section said money has helped me to beat the disease. I know money matters a lot. This hospital Narayana has got some special facilities for patients. Like if you are a government employee, you will be given treatment for free. Also they give free treatment to children. I hope this information will be helpfull.

Fresh out of High school I realized I had put on quite a bit of extra fat over my lower waist and thighs. I guess due to the board exams I used to be stressed and constantly used to find happiness in the foods which were not that healthy and were highly palatable.I decided to join gym for the sole purpose of losing the the excess weight before my college started. Though I always wanted to look like the health magazine models but never believed I could do that so I decided to keep my target realistic and go for the losing weight first then if needed can build muscles. I was successful in my quest and lost a lot of weight eventually to look like a skinny fat who had no energy and vitality to do anything. So, This is clearly not what I wanted when I imagined in my mind.Also not to mention the bullying I faced in the initial days in the gym.I remember clearly to this date when my trainer saw me doing my push-ups he said“You are doing push as if you are fucking a Bitch”Which I took really hard and doubled down the effort. But not always hard work pays off.In college though I was called as “a gym guy” but I knew I was not nearly close to the physic which I wanted. Clearly now my goal had shifted towards building muscles! I went through rigorous cycles of bulk(Dirty Bulk) & cut(Muscle Loss) finally to end up where I use to start and with worned out mental strength and immense physical fatigue.I gave up gym many times in those 4 years. In last year of college I looked probably my worst just like when I started. Clearly I was not going anywhere in this so dropped this idea completely to take care of the career and get a job.This is how I used to look when I graduated from the college. A perfect example of a skinny fat guy. Who would have said I had 4 years of training under my belt. Though in this pic you can see my fat stomach and belly tires protruding from the sides. Even I have a layer of fat on my face.I got placed in the highly reputed MNC and my real fitness journey began at that time. Luckily my roomie had the skills to cook which made me give the GYM another try to see if I could get some positive results this time. I gained some muscles back which I had mistakenly build in my initial years of lifting. I thought I made some progress but after couple of months I got stuck again !! Albert Einstein Rightly said:““Insanity is doing the same thing, over and over again, but expecting different results.”But this time I decided not to drop the idea instead put all my effort in search of the answers in the content out there over the internet. Slowly I realized the mistakes I was doing in the gym and outside the gym. Now I was slowly uncovering the science behind the bodybuilding and gaining some momentum. Still it was a long but fun learning curve in which I was able to build a lot of muscles with gaining some solid knowledge under my belt. Now it is been little more than 3 years and I am closing to my ideal physic which I always wanted.This is how I look now I guess it is not a lot but definitely I have come very far from the point where I startedEdit: Well I never took a chance to thank everyone for the awesome upvotes and fantastic comments for my answer. To put it straight I am really grateful for everything and hope to be of service to push mankind in the healthy era of living. Stay Blessed !! Thanks!