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Should I end my relationship because I can't have children?No. Period. You say you love her and that she will stay with you. You think it will be better for her if you end the relationship, because she "wants a child more than anything." No. She does not want a child more than anything, if she would choose you over having a child.You wrote in Details:I am unlikely to father a child (naturally/IVF). I am 48. My partner is 38. We have been together 4 years. She really wants to have a child. Adoption/sperm donation would not work. She still wants to be with me. Should I end our relationship to give her the chance of a child with someone else?And in Question Comments:I have been ambivalent about a child. I am very good with them. I had given up thoughts about them due to not having found anyone I loved. I love her and want a child with her.She wouldn't consider adoption. I wouldn't consider a sperm [donor]. There are complex reasons behind this but be assured that this is the case.Re. your point on choosing. She will choose me. My point is that this is likely not in her best interests. She wants a child more than anything.And in Answer comments:[...] I have had two fertility tests and I've been told by two different doctors that IVF would be unlikely to help.She wouldn't consider adoption. I wouldn't consider a sperm [donor]. There are complex reasons behind this but be assured that this is the case.I don't agree that any decision must be mutual. She loves me. She will stay with me regardless. This means she will forgo the chance of a family - the thing she wants most in the world. As someone who loves her, I don't think I can let her do that. That seems rational to me.Love isn't rational. Rational isn't love.You have thought your way into a trap, with all exits sealed. My first suspicion was that you are looking for reason to end the relationship. Perhaps you feel guilty. Yes, you are telling yourself this is best for her, but what does she think? And is that your habit, to decide what is best for her and then do it to her, regardless of how she thinks and feels about it. Yeah, "rational people" do that sometimes.We will all die. Almost certainly, one of you will die before the other. Will that one die alone, or in the company of one they love and who loves them?She doesn't know if she can have children. What if she can't? At her age, it starts to get dicey.Okay, story time. I had five children in my first marriage, spaced mostly a bit more than a year apart. Fast forward, I was 49 and married a woman 17 years younger than I. She wanted children. I didn't need more children for myself ... but I wanted children for her. But she wanted to do this and that first, and it took time. By the time we started in earnest, she was about 38 and I was 55. She got pregnant, and we found the fetus was not viable (anencephaly), so she aborted. Ah, that was hard! She did get pregnant again, but miscarried. So we were doing all the things you do, including artificial insemination (with my sperm). But my sperm were, ah, a good word is "lazy." The doctor showed it to me, and showed a sample from another man who was there. Huge difference. We could have gone for IVF. It's expensive and success isn't guaranteed. We went to a conference where all the options were discussed.We chose international adoption. The process with China took about two years. about $15,000, though you can do it for less, and very reliable. Besides, we got to go to China. What an amazing trip!O. M. G. She's looking over my shoulder in my profile photo.And then we adopted again, from Ethiopia.There is an adoption instinct, my opinion. I am just as attached to my adopted children as my biological ones. And many people who take on stepchildren report the same. Humans love children.Now, your situation. You have made a series of declarations. Some are fact, some are not fact but stands or positions. People change their minds. What we declare one day, we may drop the next, particularly when we are inspired to something better.You have asked here if you should leave her. I've clearly said, no, at least not from what you have told us.These are the conditions or statements.You are infertile. Your sperm are not viable. That's not so surprising at your age. It may still be possible to retrieve sperm, I don't know what kind of testing you had. You will, I'm sure, become fully informed if you are not, already. I will point out that "unlikely" does not mean "impossible," and leave this issue there.You will not consider a sperm donor. You have not stated why. You would accept an adopted child, you imply. So why not a child with a sperm donor? The only difference would be that instead of 100% other parents, it would be 50%. The child would still be the child of the woman you love.I can imagine reasons to reject this. In the context, they all suck. They are not about love. But maybe you have Perfectly Good Reasons. Just don't ever let "good reasons" get in the way of real love.I will point out that if you end the relationship so that she can have children with someone else, this involves a "sperm donor." Though perhaps one who will take responsibility for the child, instead of you. Suppose she already had a child. Would you have rejected her? If you did break up and she gets together with someone else, and then he leaves or dies or something, would you consider taking her back? If not, why not? And if so, why not skip all the confusion and pain of breaking up and just love her to bits, doing whatever it takes. Sperm donor, no problem. Adoption, no problem. Decisions made together, not by you alone.So, then, adoption. You say she won't, but she might change her mind. People who have adopted swear by it. As one with five bio kids and two adopted, I would not choose one over the other. I was older with the adopted children, and that, I think, allowed me to enjoy the whole process far more deeply.If the obstacle is you, fix it. Yes, you could fix it by getting out of her life, but doesn't that seem a tad cruel? And, for that matter, risky?The situation you presented is impossible, no-win, unless you stop believing yourself so much. You created a series of stories, interpretations, then took them as axioms, trying to think your way out of a paper bag.If you and your partner love each other, what are you waiting for? Love each other! Love brings joy. Some people never have children, but support all those around them who do.And what is the purpose of children?Love, only love.