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A big YES!I graduated from a top-50 engineering school. Joined one of the MNC’s in 2014 due to unavailability of other opportunities at the time, my limited knowledge about startups and in the pressure of paying back the education loan. Performed well in internship and was in top 5 of the training batch. But, no one is asked here which skills they are already good at, so that they can be sharpened. Everyone gets trained according to ‘business needs’. Everyone gets allocated to units according to ‘business needs’. No emphasis on career development of employees, just get the billing going.Fortunately(or rather unfortunately) was assigned to a development project, building up a system from scratch. Worked with senior engineers and architects to design, brainstorm and implement. For a while my experiences were comparable to a few of my friends working for smaller start-ups or on their own products. Toiled nights learning new and hot, trending technologies. Working for IT didn’t seem that bad. My skills were growing. Then came the first appraisal cycle. I was informed that I wouldn’t get a hike as I had not completed a year yet. Fought hard for counting the internship experience as legit, was told by HR to stop pursuing that as company’s policy do not change when a lone wolf asks for it and that I should be grateful to get a development project just after completion of training.On confirmation after a year according to their revised dates, recieved hike normal to the industry, no difference between me and someone who had flunked training twice and was still sitting on the ‘bench’.( On the contrary failing in your training provides you 2–3 months extra, where you are forced to re-appear for you exams and this means you join actual production units 2–3 months after the majority of your training batch does. This means when you are finally ready, your batchmates have already been absorbed by projects having high resource demand. When you enter the scene, you get to choose from many available projects which are waiting for resources to be allocated and hence can appear for multiple interviews and choose the one you think would be best for you. Many wouldn’t agree to what I said, but I have seen people ‘gaming’ the system by failing purposefully.)The project completed in a year, only maintenance and CRs remained to be looked into. Manager moved me to new project under the same account, as I was now the resource who learnt quickly. In hindsight, apart from my quick learnability what mattered more was this- I was a fresher and hence cheaper from financial perspective. At the end of 2 years -my juniors, who joined the company later than me, joined project later than me, whom I had mentored in new technologies- got promoted over me, just because of the stupid company policies on internships.The new project was more challenging, with a technology stack spanning two pages. Lot to learn, little time. Everyone overkilled- working insane hours learning new stuff, implementing designs, coding and testing. All these while still battling the fundamental problem of Indian IT- no investment in good computational resources. The resources used 15–20 years back, still stay. Nothing changes. You build a 20-services project and expect it to run on dual core cpu. This is as fucked up as a company can get!! Shame that companies who claim to be torch bearers of technology can’t provide basic infrastructure to their own employees! Needless to say, fought on these issues with senior management leading to no actions, only wordly assurances. This lead to overloaded working hours- 11 was the new 6.New teams formed- with not so good dynamics. People started burning out. The strength of the teams kept reducing. It was like a chain reaction, one after other everyone started putting down papers. Manger kept hiring- ofcourse only freshers, because who else can work their asses off for so less money? And no fresher in sane mind could resist the temptation- working on all latest technologies, when their friends are only offered support projects. This leads to a downward spiral- no mentoring for juniors, frustratingly slow systems, young crowd of freshly minted ‘engineers’ who may not be equiped to perform in such high-stakes conditions, pressure to perform better than others because of large number of same level of employees working for the limited chance to grow. Everyone on the project is responsible for 1–2 level beyond their designated positions. Because, hey if you won’t someone else will and you will be replaced.At about 3 years of experience now, I lead a team, unofficially ofcourse, due to paucity of technical leads. I say this, not to brag about myself- but to highilght the fact that I should not be leading a team. I should still be learning. I am a passionate coder, but now I rarely get a chance to write one complete module even. I spend time ‘mentoring’ and ‘reviewing’ others. All lead-level employees that got hired, do not understand a single line of code. They spend their time ‘managing’ teams- which includes coercing employees to deliver what is not humanly possible, pushing their levels of frustrations and at the same time taking credit for all that gets done.My point for writing such a long post- I agree with other answers and the blogs in question, that these companies rarely get an ‘actual’ engineering project. But, even if they do, like ours, the management and infrastructure is not adequate enough to sustain it. Agree with the other answer saying - too many dumb people got promoted too quickly. And these people now form the middle- level of these companies. And while these companies may hire amazing CXO’s, the mid-level employees are the actual engines that fuel the work culture and their mentality is to suck as much billing out of an employee before discarding them- once they gain experience and demand higher pays and perks.Nor do these companies have policies that try to empower their employees. It promotes the slave mentality. Even in interactions with clients one can see how managers cave in even if they know what the client demands is unreasonable. Exploitation is in the DNA. And I don’t know if that is ever going to change.So yes, its a horrible time to be in an Indian IT services company.

Thanks Sibin Nair for this questionMuthoot Finance has announced the closure of about 300 of it's branches in Kerala. Would you say trade unionism culture is really letting Kerala down since we have beem really struggling in creating jobs locally?Well, its a fact Muthoot Finance, one of the leading NBFC in Kerala is closing many of its branches in Kerala. The official reason cited is continuing protests by its employees affiliated to CITU for last 15 days.This has sparked a wave of Anti-Union posts on social media primarily due to the usual critical ones against Left parties for spoiling Kerala’s industrial growth. This question in Quora represents that ideology part.I wish to make a detailed understanding of context of both sides in detail. I am in the privy of some information related to Muthoot’s HR data but I don’t intend to disclose here as it isn’t in the public domain so far. So only quoting those in the public domain.Background of the companyMuthoot Finance (Red) is one of Kerala’s oldest NBFC (Non-Banking Financial Company) founded in 1887. At the time of the founding, it was involved in general trade mainly related to rice and pulses. The founder- Ninani Mathai was primarily a wholesaler in the town of Kozhencherry in Kingdom of Travancore.The nearby Kochi Kingdom’s finances was heavily based on Chits model and the government itself pioneered the concept of Chit funds as one of the official public saving models for the state since the 1850s. This has influenced many Christian families of Travancore to replicate the same business model in Travancore. Ninani Mathai founded Muthoot Chits in 1887 in an informal way as a way to increase public savings and increase a strong cash flow his trade activities.When his son- George Muthoot returned back after a stint in Army service, they formalized the chits funds into a company model, thus one of the first formal corporate Chit fund in 1925. They pioneered the concept of NBFC in Travancore or probably in South India as untill then chits and similar things were mostly done in an informal manner. Muthoot Chits slowly became Muthoot Finance in the year 1939 by diversifying into Gold chits as well as Gold loans.Why 1939? In the 1920s, Travancore was rapidly growing in the Banking sector and more than 50 banks rose into prominence, fuelling the economy, mostly started by the Christian community with heavy royal patronage of Regent Queen- H.H Sethu Lakshmi Bai. However, the power politics in the Palace led to frequent changes in monetary policies and lead to the collapse of many leading banks in Travancore since the 1930s. This lead to a huge financial crunch in the economy. Though this was a very challenging environment, for Muthoot, they saw a huge opportunity by initiating the concept of Gold Loan. Most of the middle-class Malayalees do have gold in their homes as Malayalees are heavily attached to the yellow metal. In times of distress, its often used to meet the ends. Untill 1939, most of the gold loans were handled by local goldsmiths and scrupulous moneylenders. There was no surety about the gold and its safety. Muthoot offered a secured-safe environment for those who want to pledge/mortgage gold which was its key selling point and was first among to offer such quality service.That business clicked and there was no looking back for Muthoot. Today Muthoot finance is India’s largest Gold Loan based NBFC and one of India’s super brand in NBFC sector. Muthoot Finance’s key business is Gold Loans and as per many estimates, its the world’s largest Gold loan focused NBFC with a revenue of more than Rs 30,000 crore (USD 5 Billion). Muthoot Finance holds more than 150 Tonnes of Gold in its kitty.Infact Kerala’s 3 brands (Muthoot-Red, Muthoot Blue and Manapuram) hold more than 47% of India’s Gold loan NBFC business and these companies hold Gold reserves more than the sovereign gold reserves of Australia, Sweden or Singapore. So essentially the bread and butter of these companies is Gold mortgages made by common manThe company rapidly grew in a period of time. Especially in 1970s when Gulf migration started and banks were nationalized in India. Most of the ordinary men who were scouting for a chance to migrate used to pledge/mortgage their family’s little gold at these NBFCs to raise money to obtain visas. As banks were nationalized, most of them became too bureaucratic and very hard for people in lower strata and middle class to secure small personal loans. Thus people had to depend on NBFCs like Muthoot despite of their higher interest rates and the shorter repayment period. The subsequent Gulf boom fuelled a huge growth of these kinds of NBFCs as everyone regularly needs money for various consumerist activities and gold loans became the easiest option. The gulf money fuelled more consumption of Gold and with more accumulated gold wealth, they convert themselves as an easy way to obtain short term loans. That time, to get a personal loan from a bank was almost getting a US Visa of today. So everyone went with these kinds of NBFCs.This pushed a rapid scale of expansion of Muthoot in 80s-90s. The Muthoot family got divided into three business groups and all these three were into these Gold loan business. However, the Red Muthoot became the largest and widespread operations. In a time frame of 20 years, they opened more than 900 branches just in Kerala which shows the scale of operations Muthoot had untill 2000s. Thousands or ten thousands of employees were recruited across various branches and Muthoot almost reached to its zenith.So whats exactly is the problemThe problem here is a very large section of its employees of Muthoot, especially in Mid and lower levels are heavily underpaid.Muthoot, like any Indian NBFC, doesn’t offer even a decent pay to its employees. Practically they don’t bother much on employee welfare or growth etc. Most of its employees are just meant to work for a few years and leave the organization. But even those who have decades of service are never paid according to their experience. And the company has no clear cut HR policies like Promotion policy, appraisal system, training development etc.But that was very much okay when it was operating as a pure single proprietorship entity in past. Muthoot over years became a corporate giant. And in 2008, it got listed in BSE and one of the forerunners among financial companies of India.But this change from a single proprietor entity to a listed company hasn’t been seen in its HR policies. That still remains old fashioned. The last pay revision came almost 15 years backSalary Slip of a Service Assistant (a term used for Customer relationship executive in Muthoot Finance). This person was working for 13 years in the company, yet his pay including all benefits is just 11,000 Rs, far below the official Minimum wage rate fixed by Kerala Govt. A labourer in street earns more than 700 Rs per day, but a white-collar executive earning less than 370 Rs per day.A news report that came recently how the majority of Muthoot employees in Kerala earns very low salaries… There are people who have 27 years work experience in Muthoot, earning just 17K (before all deductions).A Malayalam documentary how Muthoot Employees forced to strike with very low salary and how the employment conditions affected themThis poor pay structure has to lead many senior-long serving employees to feel frustrated. So as part of pushing a collective bargaining system, these employees formed a Union (Muthoot Finance Employees Union) affiliated to CITU to seek collective action.But that hasn’t gone well with Muthoot Management and repulsive action came against those people who formed a union. Last 2 years, they been into active talks with Management to resolve the issues, but nothing much seems to happen. Though they formed HR restructuring plans, it's yet to be implemented.This lead to the strike for the last 2 weeks.Why Muthoot is not implementing any HR restructuring plans?Two simple reasonsIts top management is still ruled by Muthoot family who still runs as an old-styled family enterprise rather than a corporate company with clear cut HR concepts or employee development etc.The biggest reason specific to Kerala- Muthoot sees no future in Kerala operations as it's the market share and revenue share is declining in Kerala Market. Why so?Rapid Growth of Banking activities in KeralaUnlike the growth in the 1990s, things came to a rapid halt since the 2000s. It was a period of increase in Private banks culture with the rise of ICICI, Axis Bank, Yes Bank, Kotak etc at the national level. At Kerala level, many coop banks became modernized and started aggressive expansion operations. This period also saw an extraordinary expansion of nationalized and private banks in Kerala.Kerala’s traditional banking majors- The Federal Bank, CSB, South Indian Bank and Dhanlaxmi also revamped its operations aggressively. For example, Federal Bank was literally on an expansion drive and by now, its one among top 10 Banks of India. South Indian Bank which was once so limited and conservative traditional bank, all of the sudden became a new-gen bank with massive Pan Kerala/South India expansion. So as CSB and Dhanlaxmi.In last 19 years, Kerala achieved an extraordinary banking penetration. Infact Kerala is India’s most banked state with a branch in every remote corner of the state. Its also India’s first Financial literate state nd the first state in India to achieve 91% financial inclusion rate and reaching 100% soon.Now this is the real threat which Muthoot facingUntill 2000s, most of the common man used to depend on Muthoot or similar NBFCs for personal loans. A common man who is in dire needs to pay hospital bills may think of pledging their golden chain or bangle in Muthoot for few days to get a loan. These NBFCs used to provide loan within 24 hours, unlike banks which used to take more than 3–5 working days.But with rapid changes in the banking sector, most of the Banks aggressively ventured into Gold loans. If anyone walks around any bank in Kerala, they always notice huge banners and posters highlighting Quick Gold Loan. Almost all banks have trained their employees in checking the quality of gold and issuing a personal loan. As opening a bank account became so quick these days (unlike huge formalities of 1990s), gold loans from banks became instant.A branch of CSB Bank where one can see the ads of Quick Gold loans highlighted prominently.Federal Bank offers many innovative schemes for faster Gold loans systemsAnd it's damn cheap too. Banks offer gold loans for 10–11% per annum contrary to Muthoot’s 12–26% per month/tenure basis. And the repayment flexibility is very high for banks. They offer upto 1 year and even extendable unlike Muthoot’s shorter period with heavy penalties.In short, most of these NBFCs in Kerala acquired a popular nickname- Blade Companies, due to their higher interest/processing rates which actually slices the financial capacity of people who got loans.This new option of faster, easier and cheaper gold loans thro’ banks and coops pushed Muthoot and similar NBFCs to lose its sheenRise of Competitive NBFCMuthoot Finance is also threatened by rise of many Gold Loan NBFC brands across Kerala. These entities which were once family enterprise also rose to prominence in the last 2 decades following Muthoot’s footsteps. Entities like Kosamattam, KLM Axiva and many such entities are widely expanding across Kerala and these have resulted in heavy competition and eating much of Muthoot’s traditional shareMany of other popular Gold Loan NBFC who are aggressively promoting themselves which has reduced Muthoot’s market base in KeralaRise of new quick finance options.Muthoot Gold loans lost its sheen in the last 2 decades primarily because of the rise of alternate quick loans concept. Be it in the form of credit cards, private personal loans, EMI oriented at-store purchase options like Bajaj Finance etc. This has reduced the demand for Gold Loans as gold is primarily an emotional asset and in most of the families, they prefer to save gold from the mortgage, if other options are available.Loss of other business streamsMuthoot Finance in last one decade tried to reduce the loss of revenue thro’ diversifying into other options like white label ATMs (Private ATMs), money transfer, foreign exchange, housing finance and similar.But none of these pushed their revenue in Kerala primarily because these options are plenty in the state. So essentially it didn’t work out much in favour of Muthoot’s new business options.All these factors reduced Muthoot’s Kerala profitability. The business of Muthoot sharply fell from 10% to 4% in the last 9 years. Remember in the 1990s, Kerala market contributed more than 60%+ for Muthoot group.So as Muthoot sharply expanded its base outside Kerala which has more opportunities today. For example, Muthoot is aggressively focused in NCR belt as much of the rural areas of UP/Haryana area have no much banking access. It's one key reason Muthoot now aggressively uses Amitab Bachan as its brand ambassador and sponsor Delhi based teams in various matches to make a strong connect locally.So as they are aggressively expanding in other markets of South particularly TN, Telangana, AP, Karnataka etc, especially the rural areas where banking penetration is low.Muthoot Finance’s new brand Ambassador- Amithab Bachan with aggressive Hindi ads and Hindi taglines focus the major shift of Muthoot Finance to focus primarily in North Indian markets, particularly the rural belt.Muthoot was the brand sponsor for IPL Delhi Daredevils untill recentlyMuthoot became title sponsors for IPL Chennai Super Kings primarily because of its fan base across South and Central India. Having a person like Dhoni as a brand ambassador helps to expand the brand so widely across India even in rural side.So as they became the title sponsors for Indian Kabbadi League because Kabbadi League was more watched in the rural side than urban areas.Coming to the current crisis in Kerala, I don’t think Muthoot is closing down its business because of trade union problems.Infact Muthoot has trade union only for last 2 years and not any major strike or lockouts. It's now only such a thing happened because of the extreme frustration of its employees.Muthoot Management seems to be playing well for an honourable exit from Kerala. They cannot simply close down the business or reduce business in Kerala overnight as it will affect their ratings as well as their share values in the stock exchange. That would send very wrong signals to the investors.It seems to me, they are using a traditional double game approach as done by textile mill owners to shift a factory by pushing existing employees to strike and appoint new employees who demand right to work, so as to create a clash environment and using that opportunity to project as unsustainable atmosphere for business conduct. This would save them from an image of exiting business due to lack of profitability.It's so evident that Muthoot representatives are refusing any sort of talks with the agitating unions or district labour officials. It's so unrealistic to say nearly 300 offices getting closed down just because of a 15-day strike.Its so suprising, Muthoot even refused to attend a meeting called by Kerala High Court’s Arbitration Council. When the employees did a strike in 2018 Dec, Muthoot group went to court to seek legal means to declare the strike illegal, which the court didn’t oblige. Instead, they referred to Arbitration Council to resolve the crisis and they called a meeting twice which Muthoot refused to participate. So as even a meeting called by State Labour Minister last day was ignored by the management and the meeting postponed to another date in the near future. And the crisis is still going on as no kind of legal deliberations happening between Management and striking employees.Muthoot protest: Truce meeting called by Minister fails as management fails to show upWhy scores of employees of Muthoot Finance in Kerala have risen in protestWhere Employees went wrong?I feel, there is a mistake from the side of employees too. While I don’t condemn their right to strike and their right for collective bargaining, they did a major mistake by forming a union affiliated to a political trade union. Political trade unions work better in organized sector and in the government sector. In a private establishment where the employment engagement is primarily based on hire-fire mode with no permanent job security system, a political oriented trade union makes little effective.The more grave situation is politicization of employees concerns.While employees have a serious set of concerns and issues which they need to get redressed thro’ collective action, by associating with CITU, they almost got a political color. The opponents of CPM in Kerala have heavily used this incident to attack the government and the party to project it as Anti-Industrial etc. If we look social media pages, most of the right-wingers in Kerala are highlighting this matter to such a large extent to taint their political rivals - the left party (which is natural in politics) In short, the topic is now discussed more as an ANTI-LEFT POLITICS rhetorics than a serious HR issue faced by its employees.Screenshots of a fake video (an old dated video) that became viral yesterday heavily circulated and propagated by RSS/BJP leaders. The video shows 2–3 men entering into a branch and dragging a lady in the counter, which was shown as an event happened yesterday in a Muthoot branch by CITU leaders to shut down the office.Even former DGP of Kerala (who recently joined BJP) along with many others were prominent in sharing the fake video to discredit their political opponents. The video and post was removed once they realized it was fake. But it made its purpose as it widely reached many who many not aware, it was a fake video. This kind of politically oriented propaganda has hijacked the professional crisis of its employeesAnother problem is that, once the strike came under CITU’s banners, many party workers got into the strike who are unrelated to the issue. We can see many local CITU leaders who have no direct connection with employees in the agitation. What's more irritating is to see CITU’s headload workers (mostly goons) trying to give a sort of protection to the striking employees? How come Headload workers involved in an agitation associated with NBFC Employees?Headload workers getting involved in a strike associated with a strike of white collar workersAnother problem is that, a lot of petty leaders of CITU got involved in this crisis. They are power-arrogant and works in typical strike pattern as done with government bodies. If you are doing a dharna in a govt office, its very likely you block entry of those who are ready to work and sometimes scuffles etc may happen which public doesn’t care at all. After all, its been a pattern for a long time. But doing the same pattern in a private office gives very WRONG SIGNALS to private investors. If one has to strike in a private enterprise, it needs more creative ways, unlike the 60s-70s style pattern. By doing so, CITU has alienated many middle-class working professionals in supporting the just cause of the employees.Coupled with strong propaganda unleashed by Right-wingers, most of the common middle-class people do think this strike is WRONG without seeing the plight of the employees. So essentially the employees need to be blamed as they literarily gave politics to hijack their professional crisis.Thirdly, I think there should be an understanding of working mode of private enterprises. Employment pattern in Private enterprises cannot be driven in old-styled public employment concepts. Yes, the staff of Muthoot are highly underpaid much like many other NBFCs. But it is something known to all. No one believes Muthoot will pay like State Bank of India or Tata Capital etc. So the primary purpose of employment in companies like Muthoot should be building experience and identify newer avenues of growth, rather believing in old styled employment concept of sticking to one company untill retirement. Its where many senior employees lost the plot. They continued working with Muthoot for years for a pittance and never scouted for opportunities elsewhere (or probably never got so).So essentially doing an old-fashioned lock-down strike only ruined their image as Muthoot who were intending to reduce Kerala operations, got valid excuse at expenses of this strike. In short this strike helped Muthoot Finance more than its employees.Anyways, Muthoot’s reduced operations have not much to do with this strike, but essentially they got a perfect valid cover-up/justification in name of so and thereby created a bad name for Kerala…

I refrain from telling the company name. I worked a lot in the initial six months of joining this company. I got an award too. It was appraisal time and i was expecting a good hike, which i was promised by my manager. I got the hike letter and was surprised to see a hike of 0.8%. I pinged my manager and since i was travelling he told, you come back and we shall see. I realized he is just trying to delay things. Told to him in one conversation, what is the point of working so hard when there is no rewards. It is better not to work and stay with the benefits i have. He told im crossing all the limits and that is it. From that moment till the next one year i saw hell.He would micromanage me so much. I cannot come to office after 8:15 AM. I would get a message where i am. If i reply saying i am having breakfast or going to have breakfast, he would say come back in ten minutes, go run have it and come back.If i come late any day, even if i travel to my other cities in weekend and come back, it is understandable that there will be delays due to journey and one will be tired, he would shout as soon i come in, and when i explain him the reason, he would say, you need to come back previous night itself so that you can come on time to office.If i take breaks , or seen talking to someone in the floor, he would immediately call me and say, we don’t have time for all this. Even i have got calls when i went to the restroom.Work also used to much. So i would leave late from office. Sometimes 10PM or 12AM or further continuously for days. Then also i am expected to come to office on time before 8 AM. Considering i have 1 hour travel to and fro to office, i hardly had time to sleep. My body used to wear out. Once it happened that i was assigned a task, which according to me would take atleast 2–3 days but his instruction was to finish it before tomorrow. I tried to tell him, but he wasn’t ready to hear. i stayed till 1 AM and left for home. Next day he came and asked me about the status. I said i couldn’t finish it so i left at 1 AM. I wasn’t expecting any empathy from him, but his answer shocked me. He said, why did you go home without finishing the work. I was stunned.Unrealistic deadlines were given and if not finished, i would be called in for meetings and asked, what is lacking in you. Are you not capable of finishing it. Should i escalate it. Even if i take leaves due to illness, proper investigation happens the day i step in office again. He would suggest a doctor he knows and once told, you should get me his prescription as proof when you come on Monday. This is because, i shouldn’t take leaves, not that he cared for me,Once my teammate went out for personal work but he couldn’t come back in the expected time for which he has asked permission for. He got delayed by an hour. The same day evening we got mail, that we are not staying in office in office hours and hence he would escalate it to HR to take disciplinary action. I was also included in the mail, as i come to late office sometimes.When we used to travel, we were given work by our onsite counterparts, Irrespective of what we do there, we were asked to do work that was assigned by him. The work assigned by onsite counterparts itself takes up most of the time and we used to work in irregular timings, Over this we were expected to work on other items, When we didn’t deliver we were called for meetings with senior managers.This is just a list of some things which i went through. There is more. I don’t want to write pages of what i experienced. Finally i got depressed and had to take a long leave to prevent myself from taking some unwanted steps. In the meanwhile i got another job offer and resigned. While resigning i mentioned all these issues in the resignation form. It so happened that HR called me to discuss and they were talking as if all my issues were imaginary and i am not complying to his words. It was like talking to a wall and i told them that.It was time for appraisal and they called me and told, you have done good work and your rating is average. Later i came to know, they have updated the portal with Worst performer, but vocally they lied to me that i am a vital performer and gave me the least rating.The irony is that this person was very supportive and nice till the spat between us happened. I only believed since he said he would take care of my hike and worked my ass off. But when time came he washed his hands off and said, HR only decides hike. This one spat totally changed his attitude towards me.Till this day i have problems believing someone in office. I don’t open up, i don’t communicate freely. Prefer staying speeds.it takes a good 1–1.5 years to get the confidence on whom to believe and open up and start talking normally. I would be very attentive of the activities that i do so that it should not go against me. That fear remains forever. I have to doubt every individual when it comes to office so that such things don’t repeat again. The jovial me from my first company is not alive anymore. It just come out in spurts with people whom i start to believe. This bad experience has made me cautious.Even though i struggled so much, there are so many positives to take when i look back. My teammates were very supportive. They would spend hours without expecting anything in return. They would support emotionally too. i could learn a lot in that period.Above all, why i am writing this answer is even after all this, i got a job even though with very less hike. My life continued and have seen so many god characters since then. If i had succumbed to the pressure at that moment it would have been a huge loss for my family and friends. But instead i played the waiting game and let things take a turn. This just teaches us that if you can hold on during difficult situations and let it pass, there is a hope on the other end of the tunnel. Never let the darkness engulf you. Let the light of hope lead you through the difficult times and always remember however bad or good the situation is, it will change because change only is constant.