Minutes August 11 2014: Fill & Download for Free

I started skateboarding in the summer of 2014 when I was 41, wihtout any prior experience.Before even attempting to stand on a board, I took a one hour private lesson. Played around a little on my own for a few weeks after that and then took another one hour private lesson.After that I took a break until the spring of 2015 when I started going to skateparks 1-2 times per week, 45 to 90 minutes per session. Whenever possible, I tried to increase the sessions to 1-3 hours.Usually I went up early and visited the skatepark in the morning. I was usually alone there (nice when you're a beginner) or shared the park with a few other older guys. I can really recommend speaking with the other skaters in the park, you can learn a lot from each other!In the autumn of 2015 I finally "dropped in" for the first time. It was a really low quarter pipe. Before I made it, I had fallen quite badly a few times. No injuries, but it hurt a lot. This is how it looked.In the beginning I was only wearing a helmet and sometimes gloves, but after my failed attempts at dropping in I geared up with writst pads, knee pads and elbow pads.I'm a slow learner in general and build confidence (and skill) by focusing on the basics in the beginning. Standing on the board, pushing the board on flat ground (forward, big clockwise/anti clockwise circles, etc), trying some very low, very gentle slopes, etc.I like the skateparks because of the very smooth concrete surface, since getting stuck on a small piece of rock - usually leading to a complete stop (and fall) - is not very nice when you're a beginner.Skateparks usually also have areas with different difficulty levels, which makes it easy to use progressions as a way to learn.I still haven't learned any tricks like ollies, but enjoy riding in skateparks a lot anyway. Especially when I conquered my fear of riding in bowls - that's a really nice feeling once you get your speed up a little!Living in Sweden is not ideal for skateboarding, but you can still easily get 8 months per year outdoors. Currently it's winter here in Stockholm where I live so I'm really looking forward to spring so I can start skating again! :)EDIT: I haven’t been able to skate a lot during 2016, but here’s a clip from today (September 6, 2016) which shows my current level. I’ve mostly been skating in bowls this year and it’s a wonderful feeling to finally be able to do it!EDIT 2 (October 4, 2016): Dropping in has been my goal for a long time, but I’ve also been very scared of doing it. I did some attempts last summer (see above) and I sometimes made it, but it felt like luck and was very scary.Since the skateboarding season is nearing its end here in Sweden I thought that I would make a final push to learn it. Watched a lot of dropping in tutorials on YouTube this weekend and built up my confidence.Went to the skatepark yesterday, conquering the darkness and the cold weather. It felt like a bad day for skating, but I took it slow, cruising around in the park, doing some other stuff and then finally decided to go to a wooden mini ramp and just do it.And I made it! :)EDIT 2 (July 15, 2017): Me and my skater friend have decided to learn to do an Ollie this summer. After like 2–300 jumps the last two weeks, and countless of tutorials watched on YouTube I’m beginning to see some progress.By the end of the summer I’m hoping to be able to do this while moving and maybe jumping up to a 10 cm high curb or ledge.EDIT 3 (July 6, 2018): I haven’t been able to ride much this year, but I thought I would post my first “on board video”, filmed by holding my iPhone in my hand(!) while riding in Rålis skatepark i Stockholm:EDIT 4 (June 2019): After a month or two of focused training I finally learned how to do some decent frontside and backside kickturns! So happy :)EDIT 5 (August 11, 2019): This summer I decided to really try to learn how to do an ollie and I finally got my first decent one a few days ago! Check out the video below at the 1 minute 12 second mark. I finally started to make some real progress with the ollie after hiring an online coach for two video coaching sessions. But then a friend pointed out that I actually wasn’t jumping up from the board in any of my previous attempts. Once I understood that I really need to jump up to become airborne I saw a lot of improvements! Getting a nice clean high ollie is one of my major goals :)EDIT 5 (August 16, 2020): I have skated a lot in 2020 and started doing some harder things. And now - for the first time since I started skating in 2014 - I have gotten some “real” injuries. Both injuries happened during the last two week period. I wouldn’t say they are related to me being an old skater though. First I fell badly twice(!) when trying to learn how to jump / ride off a 2-stair staircase. I slammed into the ground and hurt my left / front shoulder badly. It hurt a lot during a week, but got a bit better after 10 days. Now, 14 days later it’s almost back to normal again. I did some rehab training during this period though. The video below doesn’t show when the accident happened, but I think I fell in a similar way when I did hurt myself. Fast forward to 0:48 if you want to see the fall.The other injury happened this morning. I fell in a very strange way, landed on all fours and somehow hit my front teeth in the concrete.One of the front teeth was snapped in two (the tip was snapped off). It didn’t hurt and and I didn’t bleed, but I went straight to the dentist and fixed it. She told me that there were no serious damages, but warned me that I could get further problems in one to three months. Let’s hope that doesn’t happen. I have no video of this, but two still pictures. One taken right after the accident and one after the tooth was fixed by the dentist.EDIT 6: December 2020. This autumn I have tried to improve my kick turns in general and kick turns in the ramp in particular. After a lot of experimenting I finally realised how important it is to actually look at the coping - instead of looking into the wall - when you’re riding up the transition in the ramp. I also learned that it gets much easier to do a tighter kick turn (closer to 180 degrees if you turn your head before you do the turn. Here’s a recent session where I finally could start riding back and forth from one side to the other in the ramp. Great feeling!

Living in China for more than two decades, I took many photos from which you can get an insight into China. The following photos ( 2013~2017) range from big cities to rural villages, from day to night, from factories to religious architectures, from daily life to special moments. The logic of the photos is mainly based on time.Hongkong. Jan 23, 2013. Disneyland.Hongkong. Jan 24, 2013. Hongkong Ocean Park.Guilin, Guangxi. Feb 5, 2013.Guilin, Guangxi. Feb 6, 2013.Guangzhou. Feb 23, 2013. Shishi Sacred Heart Cathedral:Most people who go to this church for religious reason are from Africa. There are many people from the south of Africa living in the northwest of Guangzhou.Zhongshan, Guangdong. Apr 6, 2013. My junior high school, as well as my parents and sisters’:This is a blackboard for homework.Dachong, Zhongshan, Guangdong. Apr 6, 2013. This is my little town.Zhongshan, Guangdong. May 1, 2013. LRT from Zhongshan to Guangzhou.Let’s have a look at the various trains running on the ground.On the way back to Guangzhou from Chongqing. August 5, 2015. Red-covered train (红皮车) is a kind of slow train.Train to Tonghua from Shenyang, Liaoning. March 10, 2017. Green-covered train (绿皮车) is a kind of slow rain too.Anren, Chenzhou, Hunan. May 3, 2017.Okay, now back to 2013.Guangzhou. June 20, 2013. A classroom in my university.Guangzhou. Dec 25, 2013. Also a room in my university.Guangzhou. July 24, 2013. View from the classroom.Dachong, Zhongshan, Guangdong. Jan 29, 2014. My grandma’s village.Dachong, Zhongshan, Guangdong. Jan 29, 2014. My grandma’s house. People in the village usually stick the spring festival scrolls.Dachong, Zhongshan, Guangdong. Jan 30, 2014. View from my old home. Most of people living at my little town are from other provinces. They come here for work but usually go back home for Spring Festival once a year. So the town is a bit quiet that time.This is the same street! It will flood every time when it rains hard. Every time! Pic taken on Apr 4, 2016.Just a day later on Apr 5, 2016. View from my new home at the same town.The same home, the same town. May 28, 2017.Okay, back to 2014:Guangzhou. Feb 27, 2014. There are various kinds of dormitories in my university but you cannot choose where you want to live. This one is very broken, without elevators or air conditioners ( they installed air conditioners in 2016). The old desks and chairs are just changed.Guangzhou. June 26, 2014. Spicy Sichuan food. Tasty but not good for stomach.Dachong, Zhongshan, Guangdong. August 25, 2014. Dishes cooked by my mother. These are the dishes we usually eat.Guangzhou. Sept 13, 2014. A canteen in my university. At lunch or dinner time, it is rather hard to find a seat.Guangzhou. Nov 19, 2014. Huadiwan of line 1 of Guangzhou Metro. This station is actually very special because most of the metros cannot be seen from high place. You’ll know what I mean after seeing the photos below.Guangzhou. Dec 28, 2014. Lijiao of line 3 of Guangzhou Metro. The most usual kind with screen doors and running under the ground.Guangzhou. Oct 4, 2015. Jiaokou of line 5 of Guangzhou Metro. This kind goes in the sky.Guangzhou. Nov 21, 2014. Inside the metro. Don’t ask me why there are so few people. Because I can’t even breathe when it’s crowded during rush hours, let alone take a photo!Guangzhou. June 8, 2015. How about this one?Liantang village, Guangzhou. Nov 15, 2014.Some place between Zhongshan and Guangzhou. Nov 21, 2014. Taken on a bus.Zhujiang New Town, Guangzhou. Nov 30, 2014.Lijiao, Guangzhou. Dec 4, 2014. City psoriasis. Actually I find it kind of good-looking there haha.Gangding, Guangzhou. Jan 18, 2015. A famous place to buy and repair electronic products.Zhuhai, Guangdong. Feb 22, 2015. Jintai temple (金台寺).Guangzhou. March 8, 2015. Let’s take a photo!Guangzhou. May 5, 2015. The ‘legendary’ Guangzhou railway station. It is said that the station is very dangerous with lots of thieves and robbers. I've not met one but I experienced a crazy delay of 7 hours!Pic taken on July 31, 2015. It says, delayed about 6 hours and 58 minutes (约晚点6小时58分).Guangzhou. July 2, 2015. This one is epic! It says, I won’t wash my car. I’m just waiting for the rain（哥不洗车，哥等下雨）.Zhongshan, Guangdong. July 22, 2015.Guizhou. August 1, 2015. Taken on a slow train.A meal on train. Too spicy for me but it was tasty.Unknown. August 1, 2015. A place in the southwestern of China.Chongqing. August 2, 2015.Chongqing is a mountainous city where there are many ‘layers’ in the city so GPS map of 2D is useless. The front door of a building is on the first floor and the back door is very likely to be on about the 10th floor, even though both doors are on the same horizontal line. Always very confused when taking an elevator, I’ve also lost my way quit a few times. So, Chongqing earns a title of ‘ 3D magical city (3D魔幻城)’.Chongqing. August 3, 2015.The piano stairs.Spicy food again.Shantou, Guangdong. August 8, 2015.Xiamen, Fujian. August 8, 2015. Typhoon just arrived.Guangzhou. August 30, 2015. Sun Yat-sen Library of Guangdong Province. I guess they like the books with similar colour being together.Dongguan, Guangdong. Oct 24, 2015. A cloth factory.Huangpu port, Guangzhou. Nov 28, 2015.Guangzhou. Dec 15, 2015. A 3D printing rose.Hongkong. Dec 27, 2015.Dafen, Shenzhen. Dec 28, 2015. Dafen village is famous for its commercial oil paintings. The price is low as many of the painters are actually the ‘workers’ who are hired to paint the same paintings selling well repeatedly every day at a small house. One of them told me he was made to learn painting only for a month by his boss before painting the paintings sold to others.Guangzhou. Jan 1, 2016. New year’s concert by Czech Philharmonic Orchestra at Guangdong Performing Arts Theatre.Zhongshan, Guangdong. Jan 18, 2016.The same street. May 28, 2017. Building more.Dachong, Zhongshan, Guangzhou. Feb 2, 2016. Also my grandma’s village.Dachong, Zhongshan, Guangdong. Feb 5, 2016.Dachong, Zhongshan, Guangdong. Feb 8, 2016. A traditional food named Jiandui (煎堆).Dachong, Zhongshan, Guangdong. Feb 9, 2016.A sunset at a village named Qifenghuan.Dachong, Zhongshan, Guangdong. Feb 9, 2016. Some sacrifices for spring festival. The two fish will be released to the river, Xi River.Dachong, Zhongshan. Feb 10, 2016. My sister’s hamster :DDachong, Zhongshan. Feb 12, 2016. My town is famous for mahogany industry.Guangzhou. Feb 23, 2016. Suddenly curious about eBay, though I couldn't and cannot live without Taobao and Tmall. And when I tried to create an account of eBay, wow, Droste effect! !Guangzhou. March 26, 2016. A night bus.Pingyuan, Meizhou, Guangdong. June 14, 2016. It stormed every day when I stayed there. But I really love this quiet and clean place. Also the food, haha.Guangzhou. June 23, 2016. On my graduation from South China Normal University.Haizhu District, Guangzhou. June 24, 2016. The 8th Guangzhou International Buddhist Items Fair and Incense Culture Expo.Guangzhou. July 7, 2016. A factory of facial masks.July 11, 2016. ‘You have to love something meaningless to live a meaningful life’ on a package box.Guangzhou. July 20, 2016. Ice ballet by Imperial Ice Stars of the UK in Guangzhou Opera House.Shenzhen. August 11, 2016. The headquarters of Huawei.Zhongshan, Guangdong. August 27, 2016. Pizza cooked by my mother. Before & after:Zhongshan, Guangdong. Aug 30, 2016. Dashi, one of the most crowded metro stations. In rush hours, people have to queue outside the station to get in.Guangzhou. Sept 11, 2016. A meeting for the 4th international photography biennial of Guangzhou.Guangzhou. Sept 11, 2016. Sean Scully’s artworks exhibited at Guangdong Museum of Art.Dachong, Zhongshan. Sep 15, 2016.Guangzhou. Oct 21, 2016.Zhongshan. Oct 29, 2016. Birthday celebration.Shenzhen. Nov 5, 2016.Huizhou, Guangdong. Nov 5, 2016.Huizhou, Guangdong. Nov 6, 2016.Pati, Haizhu, Guangzhou. Nov 20, 2016. A place full of bars and cafes.Nov 21, 2016. This is the back cover of a collection of Yingchun Zhu’s modern poems, The Designing Wordsmith (朱赢椿《设计诗》). Just like the style of his poems, the prices are quite humourous and poetic, listed in various currencies: 3.69 UK dollars; 4.22 Euro; 4.67 Swiss franc; 5.63 AU dollars; 5.83 Canadian dollars; 6.06 US dollars; 36.42 Egyptian pound; 43.24 ZAR… 127360.28 VND.Guangzhou. Dec 3, 2016. A new book launch at a book shop named Fangsuo (方所).Shenzhen. Dec 4, 2016. The headquarters of Tencent.Guangzhou. Dec 27, 2016. A shopping mall.Macau. Feb 2, 2017.Guangzhou. Feb 10, 2017. Milk is on the top of tea.Guangzhou. Feb 18, 2017. A movie cinema in Yuexiu District.Guangzhou. Feb 22, 2017. A supermarket in Baiyun District.Guangzhou. Feb 26, 2017. Inside the Guangdong Provincial Museum at Zhujiang New Town.Guangzhou. Feb 28, 2017. At a halal restaurant. This kind of halal restaurant is usually named ‘Lanzhou beef lamian restaurant’. Besides noodles, they serve rice too. In fact, the lamian restaurants are so popular that you can find them even at a small town.This is the menu. Taken on May 19, 2017.Have dinner there again haha.Panyu District, Guangzhou. March 1, 2017.This photo was also taken in Panyu District on Feb 28, 2016.Zhongshan, Guangdong. March 5, 2017. Building asphalt roads.Ningbo, Zhejiang. March 10, 2017.Yantai, Shandong. March 10, 2017.March 10, 2017. Failed to see the location. Just some place above the northeast.Shenyang, Liaoning. March 10, 2017.On the way to Tonghua, Jilin by slow train. March 11, 2017. Sunrise above the snowy field.Ji’an, Tonghua, Jilin. March 11, 2017.Ji’an, Tonghua, Jilin. March 13, 2017. The river is Yalu. And the hills over there belong to North Korea. The local of Ji’an told me that Chinese ( from mainland China) can go sightseeing in NK without passport or visa but you have to stay there for more than one day, while mobile and camera are not allowed to be carried with you. Actually I felt very surprised by the convenience of Chinese visiting NK. I don't think that's good news lol.Benxi, Liaoning. March 14, 2017.That's ginseng field.And the cuisines in the northeast of China are soooo amazing!Panyu, Guangzhou. March 26, 2017.Guangzhou. March 29, 2017. A fire station.The same fire station. This was taken on May 27, 2017.Kashgar, Xinjiang. Apr 7, 2017. This pic was sent by my Uyghur friend, Abdu, to me. Not taken by me. Not sure if he likes being seen, I put an A there.He sent me this pic too, taken in his hometown Ili, Xinjiang.No matter what religion they believe in, all the students of universities of Urumqi, Xinjiang cannot pray in university. If found, he will have troubles but things are different in different areas of Xinjiang. I asked him whether they felt angry about the restriction but he said no. Besides, some names actually cannot be used yet he himself doesn't know why either.This is his notebook. He can speak Uyghur, Mandarin and a little Turkish. Three of his roommates are Han and the other two are from Kashgar and from Hotan respectively. He teaches his Han roommates Uyghur and I learn a little Uyghur from him too.Jiedong, Jieyang, Guangdong. Apr 14–15, 2017.Tea fields.Tea processing.A grumpy cat!Shanwei, Guangdong. Apr 16, 2017.Guangzhou. Apr 25, 2017. ‘My mummy won't worry any more that I don't have a seat lol (妈妈再也不用担心我没座位了哈哈哈）’. He carried his own chair to take a metro. Maybe he bought it just now.Anren, Chenzhou, Hunan. May 3, 2017. Anren is a national-level poor county (国家级贫困县).An abandoned house.Anren, Chenzhou, Hunan. May 6, 2017. A temple for Shennong.So many languages on the board at this small town where lots of old people even cannot speak Mandarin. I bought a bottle of water from an elder vendor with the help of a seemingly younger vendor over the street.There are some China’s flags hung with the religious flags.Anren, Chenzhou, Hunan. May 7, 2017. Nature time.Anren , Chenzhou, Hunan. May 7, 2017. A train station! The population of this small town is so low that even on Sunday it is still so empty.Panyu, Guangzhou. May 16, 2017. Recently I often go for a walk along the river bank after dinner. People jog, dance, fish or walk a dog here.Huangpu, Guangzhou. May 17, 2017. The advertisement at a bus stop is being changed.Guangzhou. May 17, 2017. A metro station. Almost everything can be paid through Wechat and Alipay by mobile. I don't really remember when I withdrew money from ATM last time. Half a year ago?Shenzhen. May 18, 2017. China Smart Home Expo and IC Expo.On the sea.Compared with Guangzhou and Hongkong, Shenzhen is kind of a new-built city full of dazzling skyscrapers and green trees where most of the people are young and open minded from different parts of China and even the world struggling for their dreams so that you can blend into this city as a member of it immediately without facing much discrimination. Meanwhile, it gives me a feeling of ‘floating in the air’ as the city lacks a ‘root’ like duckweed. Tourists may barely find its unique historical architectures travelling through the most parts of the city so that what they remember is usually new skyscrapers and busy traffic.Building modern architectures does not ruin a culture, but the old classical ones should be protected. Building a skyscraper is easy, but creating a civilisation is not. Shenzhen can be such an excellent city not depending on its tall buildings but on the people, on the location.Now China is developing too rapidly, building this and that, here and there. Several years ago when I studied in university and went home once a month, I got lost at my hometown! On a new street only about 2~3 km away from my home. The bus had changed its route. The buildings looked both familiar and strange. I even asked the way! After I told that incident to my parents, they felt surprised, amused and a bit angry while my father said: ‘laugh die people (笑死人, extremely laughable)! Nobody will believe it if I tell them!’. Many eastern towns get addicted to new skyscrapers and wide roads but fail to preserve its unique place so different towns look similar (actually the central government has realised that problem and put forward some policies about 特色文化小镇). It does enhance the living standard of people but that may make the people from the certain place confuse who they themselves really are. Especially now the level of globalisation is so high and also it seems globalisation is a kind of westernisation (now I realise modernisation doesn't mean westernisation). I’m afraid I will feel very confused about my identity as I’ve not studied my culture deeply but got exposed to western culture too much. To balance that, I’ve been trying learning more about my own culture and other different cultures. It sounds a bit ridiculous but it’s true. BTW, till now, I’ve not been abroad. Hopefully I will go sightseeing abroad this year to feel more various cultures in person and also see how brainwashed I am LOL.Guangzhou. May 20, 2017. Higher Education Mega Center South metro station. 8:10 AM on Saturday.Panyu, Guangzhou. May 21, 2017. Tear down and rebuild.Panyu, Guangzhou. May 22, 2017. After a Sunday.Guangzhou. May 24, 2017. I feel safe, warm and happy in China.May 27, 2017. I bought the books online in the afternoon of May 25 and got the package today. Actually at some other online shopping websites, if you buy in the morning, you will get in the afternoon.Guangzhou. June 2, 2017. The oldest operating pharmaceutical factory in the world.It build its own museum near the factory. Now the factory mainly produces traditional Chinese medicine.Guangzhou. June 4, 2017. Xinguang bridge.Guangzhou. June 4, 2017. Bachelor’s degree show of Guangzhou Academy of Fine Arts.Guangzhou. June 5, 2017.Sharing bikes. There are Mobike, Ofo, Xiaoming, Bluegogo and many other competitors. You can find a bike by GPS of app and park the bike wherever you like.Guangzhou. June 6, 2017.Guangzhou-Zhongshan. June 24, 2017.Zhongshan. June 24, 2017. At night.Zhongshan. June 25, 2017. Day time.Huangpu, Guangzhou. June 28, 2017.Zhongshan. July 9, 2017. Went back home to see a doctor.Infusion is very common here. People say it'll do harm to health. I don't know. Yet I prefer to take that rather than have a painful fever over and over again and cough for a month.Yuexiu, Guangzhou. July 15, 2017. A shop for haute couture.Anren, Hunan. July 18, 2017. Arrived at this poor county for work again.Anren, Hunan. July 19, 2017.More buildings.Anren, Hunan. July 20, 2017.Conghua, Guangzhou. July 29, 2017.There's a town named Hot Spring Town (温泉镇) in Conghua. Yes, well-known for hot springs, attracting lots of people here for vacation.Day & night:Zhongshan. August 26, 2017. Cantonese morning tea.Taken at balcony from dusk to dark.Zhongshan. August 28, 2017. Zhongshan North Station.Huizhou. Sep 19, 2017.That teapot is 360k yuan.Changzhou island, Guangzhou. Sep 25, 2017.Pazhou, Guangzhou. Dec 28, 2017. Medicine trade fair.Hezhou, Guangxi. Dec 7, 2017.Guiyang, Guizhou. Dec 7, 2017. Guiyang North railway station.Guizhou is one of the most underdeveloped provinces in China. Before visiting it, I thought it was impossible to see so many modern buildings and most people were living at huts on hills. Apparently, I was wrong.Sour and spicy.Qiannan Buyei and Miao Autonomous Prefecture (黔南布依族苗族自治州), Guizhou. Dec 8, 2017.It says:‘Take targeted measures to help people lift themselves out of poverty (精准扶贫); uproot the poverty (拔穷根); build well-off society in every place (同步小康); compose a new piece of music (谱新曲)’.Huishui, Qiannan, Guizhou. Dec 8, 2017.Rice processing machine.Huishui, Qiannan, Guizhou. Dec 9, 2017.‘Fire is disab!ed’Guiyang, Guizhou. Dec 9, 2017.Qiannan, Guizhou. Dec 9, 2017.Huangshan, Anhui. Dec 26, 2017.Fuzhou, Fujian. Dec 28, 2017.Zhanqian Road, Guangzhou. Dec 30, 2017.A road full of cargo delivery companies of the destination to the countries using Cyrillic alphabet.On that road, there's an amazing Caucasian restaurant, though the menu is a bit funny because mistakes can be found in Chinese, English and Russian names. Later it turns out the boss is Georgian.‘Ciknstraqanov’…Thanks for reading the long answer! I have more photos of various topics actually but now feel too tired to upload. Maybe I will upload again, if you think I should.I've been uploading more photos I took with my phone in China. Both old and new. Thanks!

At least I could share it here because I didn't tell her, to be precise she wasn't interested to listen.It all started in august 11 2014. Being introvert I'm kind of reserved type of person, shy and average looking guy. With a lots of dreams and goals to make my parents proud, I entered into the class, yeah I was newbie to the class with other two guys. I made my way to the last bench and sat. Half hour later a girl entered with her friends, white t-shirt n teddy bear bag and that ponytail(fell for that). I recognized her from the college website that she is topper of the class, I said to one of my newbie friend that bro she's the topper of this class, isn't she cute?After a weekI was trying to get the output right in lab but I couldn't, I knew she was doing right next to me with her friends. She saw I was struggling to get it done. I don't know what made me to look at her, she was looking at me my hearted to beat faster than the usual. From suddenly from nowhere, she made some signs like you need help?, I was like yeah. She came n did something then also I didn't get output and she said call the lab instructor to check.In this world nobody gives damn about you but she came voluntarily to help(fell again) such a sweet heart. My feelings kept growing day by day for her I knew I love her but I didn't had courage to propose her.After few monthsOn her birthday I took her number in whatsapp group and wrote quote by myself and sent her but lots of negative thoughts running through my mind, my heart rate increased. After a minute I got text from get Thnx!.And I was constantly checking her profile picture to be visible till midnight but I was not able to see( should have taken seriously but I didn't). I used to go to college to see her and never concentrated on lectures. this went on everyday like looking at her, blushing and imaging both of us having kids and day dreaming about her. Exams came I messaged her again to ask some portions to study, she was replying lately( should have taken this seriously) but I didn't care until n unless she texts me. Again I started checking her profile picture but I was not able to see. I reinstalled whatsapp if there could be a problem(yes I was fool), Again not able to see. Yeah this time I knew what's happening, I don't know how to describe that feeling there something happening in my heart and next moment my sight was blur. Tears rolling over my cheeks, I knew it's over. She started behaving differently in classes from then I never disturbed her again. But I never stopped caring for her, thinking about her, day dreaming both of us getting married. Days months passed.Next year year on her birthdayAgain wished her with little hope, again the same text thanks. Picture wasn't visible.After a week she installed instagram, I sent her request, it showed requested for next 3 months but her followers increased. It made me to confirm. She accepted my classmates requests. I came to the reasons that I'm average in everything be it on studies or looks and my english horrible(if you're reading this you know why). I respected her decision, she must be having dreams of her partner to look good, to be rich.I worked on myself from being average student to brilliant student. People started noticing me, worked even more and my name in the list of toppers. I went ahead her, not to take revenge but to show don't judge people. But I still love her no matter what, I still cry for her. She's always there in my prayers, I want her to be happy with lots of love. I'll be there for her always. But one thing I cannot love anyone like I loved her.Things I learntLove always wins-MythNo matter how much you love a person, you should be rich or handsome.Wish anything in the world expect loveMoney is everythingJust because she didn't me doesn't make her bad. It's all about priorities. We should respect their decisions too.And now I lost faith in love, thinking not to trust anyone again and marrying someone, working on myself, my career and MY PARENTS is everything for me now.I still love you forever.